As much as I enjoyed our time together n have love for u, our time apart reminded me that I never loved u or was in love with u. In fact the reason I said I loved u was to allow u to appreciate the fact that I cared enough to keep trying to get us to a better place but stead of being humble you added more to the list of turn offs. No longer was it about who hurt who first Cuz truth is u were never loyal to me, honest to me, or willing to put in time n consistency to get us to a place were we will both respect and understand each other. All the things I overlooked and made excuses for multiplied. Who want to deal with a guy who knows u deserve better but outta pride n low ego won't treat u as such but instead plays mind games to drain ur energy? Partners are supposed to uplift, help u see urself in a way that pushes u to ur higher self. The lying, manipulation, close mindedness, wanting control over my thoughts n way of life will never compute to what I want n deserve. You being young and scorned is no longer an excuse. All the thoughts I had about u being unique has gone with the wind n u r just a copy of insecure men who questions WHY SHE FUCK WITH ME stead of appreciating WHY SHE FUCK WITH ME. We had potential but that's all it was. We were never GREAT, shit we weren't even Good long enough to have passed a 90 day trail. The fact u can say n do things one day n deny me the next shows how selfish u are n I Dont deserve selfish love especially since I've NEVER been that type. So thanks for pushing me more towards my actually standards and no longer thinking I might actually be too picky. Thanks for reminding me working with man who hasn't even made a blueprint on who he is n who he wants to be will always be an emotional rollercoaster. THANK YOU FOR MAKING MY "BUILD A MAN" EXPECTATIONS MORE REALISTIC.
