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Monday, January 25, 2010

ships

do u listen?
do u trust them?
do u compromise?
do u communicate well?
do u tryin to trust them?
do u belittle said person?
do u make time for them?
do u treat them with respect?
do u enjoy time spent 2gether?
do u want them in ur life 4 long?
do u purposely hurt each other?
do u both admit when u r wrong?
do u put in as much as u get out?
do u appreciate the things they do?
do u try to understand their feelings?
do ya have some of the same beliefs?
do they appreciate the things you do?
do they try their best to keep u happy?
do u 4give them when they are wrong?
do u try to keep them as happy as u can?
do u do things that the other person like?
do u think ur life would be better without them?
do u compare them to someone who is "better" often?
do u have to buy them things to prove ur love for them?
do u respect their beliefs even if u urself dont believe them?
do u always have to back down in a fight n just let them win?
do u have to be someone u are not just to make them happy?
do u do things that will affect them then not care that it does?
do u care about the time u spent in this "ship" with said person?

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Be's Mr Right

Lately I've been searching. Searching for someone to call my Man..
Someone that I can hold down.. someone to change my life.. Someone who
can teach me how to love again.. Someone who makes me feel safe..
Someone who I can lay on for hours n say nothin.. Someone who I can bust
out smilin for no reason and he will just join me just cuz.. I haven't
been in a relationship in a while, and with the time in between I've
tried to use it to find out what I wanted, with no success.. AT ALL.. I
am still searching for the one to make me smile even when I'm supposed
to me bad.. Someone that even after my worst day just him sayin baby
makes me feel like a lil kid again.. Someone who I can talk to about
anythin n so can they.. Someone who listens n helps me thro the bad
times.. Someone to know when I hurt and knows exactly what to do to heal
the pain. Someone who knows what I'm going to say before I say it, like
spiritually connected. someone who knows what Im going to do before my
mind is able to tell my body to do it, deep huh? I need someone who
knows that our relationship is based mostly on our friendship and the
emotional attachment, though the physical is important as well lol.
someone who will appreciate when I need space, but continues to send me
text messages asking if Im okay.. That's puts a smile to my face just to
know they care.. Someone who's not to proud to say I'm sorry but doesn't
have to use it too much.. Someone who even a billion miles away thinks
bout me like I'm right down the st.. Someone who take time out on his
busy day just to say baby I miss u... that's so sweet to me.. Someone
who's a grown ass kid but knows when to be 21 bout shit.. Someone to
hold me when I'm cold.. someone who every time I hear his name or his
ringtone I get warm inside the most important part I want is
communication n trust... if we need to talk about something...dont be
afraid to approach me with it...I love to talk about things.. N trust is
important to me I want to be able to trust him with the world n know he
trust me just as well




This sounds all good until I realized I have yet to find it mayb the
next dude will be the one mayb the one after that but till I find him
ima just keep on waitin 4 him to come n save my heart from all this pain
I've dealt with thro these years

Friday, November 6, 2009

why am i single again?

So I've been watchin tough love n I don't get WHY AM I SINGLE

I'm not a gold digger
I'm not a party girl (I go clubbin at times but I'm not a party girl)
I'm not too picky
I'm not needy
I'm down to earth
I'm sexy
I have a great heart
I have a great sense of humor
But knows when to be 31 bout ish
Some may say I'm overly sexual but honestly I'm a freak but its not like I'm like this chick... I can talk bout sex I can be blunt but do not use that to talk to guys... I am smart n can talk about a lot of things
I'm not judgemental
I can be trusted
Open minded
I'm not tryin to get married n start a family now cuz shit I'm young
I'm strong
Ima peoples person
I affectionate (if I know how he feels or is playin off his own actions)
I do know I want n can handle
I am not afraid to hang with the boys (ask ANY GUY I KNOW n they will till u)
I DO NOT fall in love easly
I can be a ball buster but hey that's me
I'm real no playin lil mind games
I'm not the jealous type
I'm not clingy
I can dress (down n up)
I'm independent as hell but ain't to proud to get help
Understandin



I guess I'm still waitin on my prince charmin but I honestly believe if he too perfect I may freak out thinkin somethin is wrong lol.

Guess ill go to sleep which is where my dreams of my charmin come true

down ass

Ima hopeless romantic
Even tho I'm not use to musy ish I can't say I would mind if a guy can wow me on the daily... shit ill take weekly

Someone to be creative with showin me they care n their love for me

Creative like askin me out on fb status or just sendin me a relationship request (no words... but he has to know I already liked him lol)

Creative like plannin a full day 2gether were all I have to do is enjoy the ride

Write me a poem (shit its been a while since I got one)

Takin ish to that grown n sexy level n get hella candles, slow jams, n a bubble bath just us two

Someone to not care how none manly they look/sound just so they can put a smile on my face

Cook for me

strip for me (even if he just bein silly lol)

Bath me (one of my friends said he did that for his then girl n I been wantin that ever since)

Watch a chick flick n cuddle with me (idc if he even falls asleep durin the movie its just the thought)

Someone that understand things aren't always happy go lucky and will stand by me throw the ups and downs... from when I'm in need of attention n I start actin like a bitch to when its that time of the month n I can't even get outta bed

When I find the man for me ima make him happy... from takin him with me when I go underwear shoppin (get him hott b4 we get home lmao) to cookin for him even if its 4am

I know ima down ass chick... just wantin on my down ass man

I want him to be a best friend so I can tell him any n everything and him towards me but sees that I need love n feels like he the only one who can give it to me

Sees me for who I am (inside) not just the thick chick that I am (outside)

Where r u prince charmin? Lol

good man

People say never give up on a good guy or girl. What if that person gave up on you months ago? How about if they never even gave you a chance? Never gave you a chance to show them all you have to offer? Are there clauses behind this saying? If so what are they? Is it written some where or you just know in your heart when its time to stop? When is it right to give up on the one you love? The one who makes you smile without even tryin. One you see yourself being 100% down for no matter what. One you think is perfect for you despite their flaws. One you opened your heart for and theu stole it. Also, is it possible to still love someone but not like them anymore? What if that person has made many choices you don't understand.

I was told a guy wouldn't waste time on a girl if he doesn't really like her. Which I do believe because they are too many girls that will give it up easy so if it it just sex why not just go to the next girl. I also believe that if you love someone who loves you even if you don't believe you would be the PERFECT person for them you would try your hardest to make it work... just to make both you guys happy and know for sure that it would or wouldn't work. Why love someone and live with the big "WHAT IF?" hangin around?

SO HOOD from the show REAL CHANCE OF LOVE has been on Twitter talking about the love she has for Chance... months if not a year after she got her heart broken by him. Is that too much? Should she give up? Should she be over him by now? How about deny her feelings for him? What if she missed what they had even if it was mainly just one sided and for a short period of time? Do you give up on what you see as a good mate then?

Most of you know who and what I'm talking about but no one fully knows how I feel inside SHIT I DON'T EVEN KNOW. I don't believe I like him any more but there are times when I just can't help but think about shit I have no business thinking about... shit so sad it makes me cry every time SHIT I'M CRYIN NOW. Is it because I still love him but I'm just lying to myself? Is it because I can't have him? Is it because I've been hurt and don't want to get hurt by him anymore? Is it because I just want to have some thing real because I damn well deserve it? I know everything happening to me now and in the past will help me cherish the love of my life. The man who will see all I have to offer and doesn't eant anyone else to have me but him. Anyways back to my current state... I some times feel dumb as fuck at the fact I still wonder about a guy who clearly doesn't see me this way. This is also why I don't believe he has any feelings for me because if he did why tell me he doesn't... why not just let me know... why not try it and see how things work out. Maybe I'm not fully over him I don't know... but I do know I'm not as into him as before NO WHERE NEAR IT but I cannot lie I still wonder why not me?

Tiffanie n Eddie

Tiffanie runs to her closet and grabs the tight black dress to match her black laces Fredrick’s Hollywood panty and bra. She looks at the mirror removes some lent then grabs her car keys. In the car she listens to nothing but slow jams along the way. She knew just want she wanted to do soon as he opens the door. Doing 90 on a 65 hitting bumbs just made her want to get there sooner. She calls him and told him she was in the area and wanted to see her baby b4 going to bed… even if it was just for a few seconds. Him loving every second they shared he said sure ill buzz u in when u get here. “Buzz me in now in right outside babe” she says. She runs upstairs trying not to slip and fall with her 6 inches heals but trying to hurry to her man so she can get what she drove there for. After getting to the door she has to pause due to being outta breath. One and then the two… two and then the three like it’s a Fabolous song. Knocks on the door even though she knows it’s open. Eddie sees tiffanie and asks where is she going looking sexy, as he walks towards to her to give his baby a hug. Tiffanie wanted him so bad she just grabbed him and gave him a passionate kiss b4 he was able to get his hug. Eddie knew she was a freak but never seen her this aggressive b4 but he doesn’t mind it just turns him on some. She pushes him to the couch and pops in a mix cd n starts dancin for her man. Tiffanie starts off with fast booty shakin songs. Singing alone with the song “If I was a stripper I would do it like this, I would do it like this, I would do it like this. If I was a stripper I would do it like this, Drop my booty make u cum give me a tip tip tip”. Then slows it down with some love making rnb. She kisses on his neck down his chest while slowly still grinding to Trey Songz “you belong to me”. Eddie whispers “damn, I love u.” she smiles and kisses his dick thro his pants. He is so hard he is about to bust out his pants. She slowly removes his penis and starts to kiss it slowly; Tiffanie can tell by his reactions that he loves it. She licks his dick then continues with oral. She keeps looking up at him cuz his reaction and the way his dick is filling her mouth just makes her all wet inside. Eddie grabs her by her face and kisses her and says “baby, I wanna feel the inside of u and make love like it’s the last time.’’ With Trey songz “ON TOP” playing in the background it’s the perfect soundtrack to the sweet love they were makin. Her body mounting on top of his it’s like they fall in love all over again. He grabs her closer while she scratches on his back. Every inch of his manhood inside of her, his balls hitting her back side they are both enjoying every second of it. With ever thrust they both moan a lil louder and Eddie goes faster. All off beat to the 112’s “SWEET LOVE” playing in the background then again they stop hearing the mix CD a while ago all they heard was the sound of love their body is making. Tiffanie grabs on the sheets to hold herself from just screaming but since Eddie wants to hear her he stops then thrust harder. “O SHIT YES!!!” Tiffanie yells. Eddie does it again. Tiffanie bites her lip to keep her from screaming again knowing that’s going to just make him try harder. Eddie pulls his dick outta her and Tiffanie screams out “ No, What are u doing” Eddie smiles n sticks it back in. Pulls it out again poking her clit and watching her juices drop down to her ass. Eddies goes in and asks Tiffanie whose pussy is it. Tiffanie screams out “Yours”. “Who am I?” he asks “Eddie James Brown” she screams. Eddie smiles cuz he knows she is about to cum again. Tiffanie realized she has cam several times without him comin once so she cums one last time then takes over. She gets on top of him n rides him like it’s a pony. She uses both her legs and hips, grabs his fingers and starts sucking on it like it’s his dick. She is so wet she dripping down so much that his balls are now wet. He grabs on her ass while she riding him, helping her stay steady… she turns and makes her ass face him so he can watch her ass bounce as she rides him. Grinding and riding on his dick. Eddie goes crazy and screams “ima bout to cum baby”. Tiffanie says “Okay,but wait cuz I want to look at u when u cum.” She turns back around facing him and as she starts to get into riding him again. Eddie starts thrusting upwards which makes Tiffanie’s legs give out. Since Tiffanie aint no sucker she uses her hips to grind on him a few last times. They both end up coming at the same time. It was so good Tiffanie still can’t feel her legs so she just remains of Eddie’s dick, leans over n kisses her man. He grabs her and has her lay on top of him as he was still inside of her. Once she got her feeling back from her legs she got off his dick and laid on top of him again, both their heart beats beating 100 times a minute. Eddie says “I love how u can still surprise me months after we been dating, this is one of many reasons why I know I’m making the right choose…” ‘What choose?” she ask. He turns over reach to a black box in his night table and says “This isn’t the way I wanted to do this but… Will u be my wife”. Tiffanie still outta breath from the workout can barely believe her eyes and ears. She screams out “ Yes Eddie, yes I will love to be ur wife baby.”