Women might hate me after this one

Do Women Look for LOVE or Security?

depends on the type of female u dealing with...

there are some female out there who only thinks about the now ... what does he have to offer me now? ima call them the "money make me cum chicks." they are the selfish ones who only want u to give give give so that they can feel better about themselves n therefore find u attractive n loving... so u must have a car, a great job or a greater hustle n willing to give her as much as she needs. the ones who wants to show off to their ex n say well my man now spends 5 times as much on me as u did... i wouldnt even call them the gold diggers cuz they arent even thinking about u in the future cuz as soon as a man with more money comes around they will forget about u n go to the next one

there are some who will be there cuz they see the "green" these are the classic gold diggers to me... they knows he is hard working,has a good career, has potential n that falls deep so they will stuck by him n motivate him as long as he one day put a ring on it n give all his earning all to her...these are the "sneaky bitches" lol these are the ones who 2 to 25 years into your relationship she gives up on u cuz the money is gone.... perfect example "JUST WRIGHT" soon as he wasnt able to play anymore she left him...smh

then theres the i just wanna be loved kind... who dont care who u are what u have long as u make them feel loved at times u good... these are the types who says shit like "he only beats me cuz he loves me" the ones who will deal with him cheating on her 18 times having 3 other baby mommas kids all back to back but she doesnt leave or just leaves n keep coming back aka "the weak chicks" every time i think of them i think of Eve's song LOVE IS BLIND

"You played with her like a doll and put her back on the shelf Wouldn't let her go to school and better herself She had a baby by your ass and you ain't giving no help Uh-huh big time hustler, snake motherfucker One's born everyday and everyday she was your sucker How could you beat the mother of your kids? How could you tell her that you love her? Don't give a fuck if she lives She told me she would leave you, I admit it she did But came back, made up a lie about you missing your kids Sweet kisses, baby ain't even know she was your mistress Had to deal with fist fights and phone calls from your bitches"

then theres the i just want the sex type bitches (used to be one of these i cant lie... but with head) were there no time to waste on emotions just gimme the dick/head n leave me alone the ones who dont want anything more then to get hers cuz in her eyes that all men are good for... the ones who walls are so built up they wouldnt see a good man if he were to back off then send her money to take care of her sick husband cuz he just wants her to be happy (dear john.... sorry but ya know i fucks with my movies n music hard lol) ill call these the "icebox chicks" lol

theres the "down ass chick" who will be there thick or thin, rain or fall, expect u flaws n all, cater to u, night n day BUT also respects herself to know when its not worth fiighting for. the one who will be there to lend u money, who will go to ur event even if she doesnt like/understand the sport u play or doesnt like watching random females go crazy over u, or thinks what u do is dangerous but as long as u are honest n faithful n keep her happy she will be there with a sign out to support u. the type of female that will love u unconditionally even if trey songz were to ask to marry her........... n even tho i joke around about my "love" for trey songz i would NOT cheat on my "mr right" with trey nor anyone else................ down ass chick is the one who will help u better yourself without molding u into someone u arent. the one who doesnt care if u have money now or if u will both end up renting for the rest of ur lives... the one who will always consider ur feelings n will fight for things when it gets hard... the type that MOST men want but most over look or cant find...

sigh... i say all this to get to my MAIN point...with all of the other types of chicks most claiming to be real n down ass i understand why its hard for a good man to find a good woman and vice versa or even in the same sex for my gay readers but WE ALL need to stop sayin "all men/women are the same"... its just more shady ones out there then real ones so for even 10 to 20 fake ones theres only one real one.... which brings me to my next note which will be "all because u love me doesnt mean we have to get married" STAY TUNE FOR THAT ONE

ima leave ya with some of my fav. biblical quotes on love


Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth 1 John 3:18

Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. 1 John 4:8

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 1 Corinthians 13:4

C.r.u.s.h (writing spring of 2007)

All becuz I liked u or whateva doesn't mean u were someone important I
have had many crushes in my life time n less then a hand full of them
ill say were important... damn many of them just come n go don't want to
mention names but I think u know who u are n if u not sure O WELL...
only two guys I eva liked ill say has/is in my heart so far. So next
time u think u someone important think twice... IIGHT
--mrs lupe fiasco

NO MORE VICTIM

since i am noticing i attract the SAME type of "victims" (lol) i am no longer lookin for a victim im looking for a MAN... not one to get married with but someone who i can trust, spend time with, n who can be my support when i need... cuz honestly im not always independent... not in the sense i need him to pay my bills but i need him to pick me up when i am down n help guide me when i am blind... remind me how kool n pretty i am when i feel down n out.. nor am i dependent cuz i hate havin to ask for things so i will try my hardest to get it myself b4 i come to u unless we build that trust n i would have to work on letting that pride down....but anyways, like i said im not lookin for a husband... not sure im any where near ready for that... i just want someone to share good times with n do things to make each other smile... i want a relationship that even if it doesnt work i dont feel like 60% of my time was a waste

i understand not everyone can be as versatile as me n i dont think what i ask for is too much but it sickens me when good men turn bad after dealing with some gold digging bitch but a chick likes me doesnt ever get to meet the real sweet side of him what i get is the side who is so done with being their true self that they just push all emotions to the side so they can get a quick nut

im not too upset tho cuz its not enuff for me to change the way i want to be treated or want in a man overall... will NEVER down size that department but i will try shopping at the mall stead of walmart for better quality maybe then it will last longer

for the love of electronics

I remember trying to find the remoter… but it was too late I was in love. Being used to basic television…. Big boxes with antennas you were different … you were my 50’’ Plasmas with many features I wanted, some features I didn’t even dream about…didn’t even care that I was paying so much for a short time warranty... I never thought about replacing you, because you made me feel like no other… you were the perfect fit to my lonely dark room… but I now see the features in u wasn’t as unique as I thought… I fall too quick without reading the manual n fine print n something went wrong… not blaming u but u didn’t help coming with a free DVD player n surround sound…felt like Xmas everyday when I was with you… whenever I was sad you knew just what to do to take my mind off of it… never thought about what would happened when the warranty ends… You may have seemed perfect when I got you, and I even though I was willing to stick with u through thick n thin I now see all your faults... Maybe someone on EBay will buy you and fall for you till the day that person realize that u have many glitches but no time left on your warranty... By then I’ll be long gone and you would have to deal with the fact I would’ve been there flaws and all but you choice the path you took… I’ll find my perfect 152’’ HDTV IED with all the latest features like being able to connect WiFi and watch YOUTUBE videos one second then watch Adult Swim the next… yea something that I can purchased on Black Friday that came with a blue ray and a 10 year warrantee , yuuup I need that upgrade.

Natural

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i swear it works

9/28/09

Wake up in a dark room
Hello is anyone in here
I hear no reply
Just my echo
Pitch black, Ice cold

How did I get here?
Did I do something wrong?
Been here for hours
Does anyone even care?
Does anyone even notice?

This is driving me crazy
There has to be a way out
Run to find this way out
A cold wall stops me
I scream for help
Even cry myself to sleep
And still NOTHING

Guess no one even really cares
Probably replaced me already
Out there free not thinking about me
Guess no one is even looking for me
Or my lost soul

Has it always been this way?
Was I the one searching?
And no one worrying about me
If not why when I’m down and blue
No one is reaching out to me

Room so cold I can no longer sleep
As I lay in this cold room just crying
I look up to a light that wasn’t there before
It’s about 6feet higher then my hands can reach
Also the size of a penny but I see it now
Not sure how I’m getting out but less I know there’s a way

MY thoughts/ checklist

MY thoughts/ checklist on bein in a REAL relationship or goin to the next step the big “M” word

Figure out what pushes the other person’s buttons n STOP doin those things
Stay on the same level as much as possible
Communicate about EVERYTHING… from how the other make u feel (good or bad) to religion to sex to future plans like KIDS, life changes (if that’s what u both want)
Don’t settle for less then what u deserve
Don’t be selfish
Know what the other considerate a date… be on the same page… if u wanna stay at home n cook n they wanna go to a fancy dinner then… ummmm
Do appreciate the lil good things more than the lil negatives
Don’t jump into somethin u arent strong enuff to handle
The more u make the SAME “mistakes” the harder it is for u to get outta ur bad ways
Compliment/criticism don’t always receive well so make sure u are bein understood… n bein understandin
Trusting one other 99.9%
Don’t lash out on ur mate when they are bein honest… it was hard enuff for them to tell u the truth
Don’t let ur insecurities take over… n DON’T expect their reassurance to make u feel great if u don’t think so also (if u think u ugly no matter what he says u will always think u are ugly maybe even think he lyin to make u happy)
Clearly agree on what is cheating... Not everyone is on the same page when it comes to that… u THINK its clean cut but its now
Clearly explain things u aren’t strong enuff to handle… everyone has weakness… don’t be afraid to let ur partner know urs… and once them “weaknesses” are out don’t use it against one another
I believe its great to set a “what if” plan… what if u all lose ur job, what if one of ur parents have to move in, what if one gets ill, what if one dies, when if ever should the other one start datin (don’t want ur mate feeling guilty about things AFTER u already past)
Don’t let sex rule ur relationship but don’t sleep on it nether… remember lack of passionate and or wild sex can drive ur partner or urself to cheat… don’t be afraid to tell the other person what u like n how u like it
Know what u want n make it clear ya both on the same page on what ya expect
Don’t abuse each other… or expect the other one to always be around if u don’t treat them right
Talk about things that can be shared with love ones n things that should stay among u two
Listen listen listen…UNDERSTAND UNDERSTAND UNDERSTAND n if u don’t then ask questions
b4 makin any big moves... movin in together, havin kids, gettin married.... come out with any lies or need to know things... that can effect ur future

my fair tale story

once upon a time i didnt believe in love... then this guy came alone n swept me off my feet n drop me on my face n left me there with a broken heart... the end

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ships

do u listen?
do u trust them?
do u compromise?
do u communicate well?
do u tryin to trust them?
do u belittle said person?
do u make time for them?
do u treat them with respect?
do u enjoy time spent 2gether?
do u want them in ur life 4 long?
do u purposely hurt each other?
do u both admit when u r wrong?
do u put in as much as u get out?
do u appreciate the things they do?
do u try to understand their feelings?
do ya have some of the same beliefs?
do they appreciate the things you do?
do they try their best to keep u happy?
do u 4give them when they are wrong?
do u try to keep them as happy as u can?
do u do things that the other person like?
do u think ur life would be better without them?
do u compare them to someone who is "better" often?
do u have to buy them things to prove ur love for them?
do u respect their beliefs even if u urself dont believe them?
do u always have to back down in a fight n just let them win?
do u have to be someone u are not just to make them happy?
do u do things that will affect them then not care that it does?
do u care about the time u spent in this "ship" with said person?

Be's Mr Right

Lately I've been searching. Searching for someone to call my Man..
Someone that I can hold down.. someone to change my life.. Someone who
can teach me how to love again.. Someone who makes me feel safe..
Someone who I can lay on for hours n say nothin.. Someone who I can bust
out smilin for no reason and he will just join me just cuz.. I haven't
been in a relationship in a while, and with the time in between I've
tried to use it to find out what I wanted, with no success.. AT ALL.. I
am still searching for the one to make me smile even when I'm supposed
to me bad.. Someone that even after my worst day just him sayin baby
makes me feel like a lil kid again.. Someone who I can talk to about
anythin n so can they.. Someone who listens n helps me thro the bad
times.. Someone to know when I hurt and knows exactly what to do to heal
the pain. Someone who knows what I'm going to say before I say it, like
spiritually connected. someone who knows what Im going to do before my
mind is able to tell my body to do it, deep huh? I need someone who
knows that our relationship is based mostly on our friendship and the
emotional attachment, though the physical is important as well lol.
someone who will appreciate when I need space, but continues to send me
text messages asking if Im okay.. That's puts a smile to my face just to
know they care.. Someone who's not to proud to say I'm sorry but doesn't
have to use it too much.. Someone who even a billion miles away thinks
bout me like I'm right down the st.. Someone who take time out on his
busy day just to say baby I miss u... that's so sweet to me.. Someone
who's a grown ass kid but knows when to be 21 bout shit.. Someone to
hold me when I'm cold.. someone who every time I hear his name or his
ringtone I get warm inside the most important part I want is
communication n trust... if we need to talk about something...dont be
afraid to approach me with it...I love to talk about things.. N trust is
important to me I want to be able to trust him with the world n know he
trust me just as well




This sounds all good until I realized I have yet to find it mayb the
next dude will be the one mayb the one after that but till I find him
ima just keep on waitin 4 him to come n save my heart from all this pain
I've dealt with thro these years